Where Have I Been?
Hey everyone! It’s me, Kim.
I’ve been away from the blog for months and I wish I had some sort of excuse, but I don’t. Truth is, I’ve just been riding the struggle bus and Beauty & A Bunny was one of the first things to fall through the cracks. I thought that the last half of 2018 was going to be my chance to make things happen, but it turns out that I had a handful of lessons to learn instead. After thinking it over, I think it’s worth putting these lessons into writing and sharing it with all of you.
Lesson #1: Always do your research.
I rushed into a job opportunity that ended up being shady af. I thought it was the perfect opportunity— work from home, in a field I was interested in, etc. A couple months in, I had issues getting paid and the job wasn’t what I thought it would be. There were many times I didn’t have a good gut feeling about the job. After going broke and doing some research, I don’t think I would have taken this job knowing what I know now. Don’t be like me, peeps. Whether its your next career move or just an online purchase, be sure to do your due diligence and make an educated life decision.
Lesson #2: Your job doesn’t have to define who you are.
I left the shady job and have been unemployed for about a month, minus the random gigs I’ve picked up. I never realized how much we define ourselves solely based on our job titles and the companies we work for. Tbh, it’s causing me a bit of an identity crisis. We are so much more than a title on our LinkedIn page. If you love what you do for a career, that is amazing. For those of us still figuring it out, be sure to make time for the things you truly love outside of work. From now on, I’m asking people what they love to do or what their passion is rather than asking them the question, “So, where do you work?”
Lesson #3: Listen to your body, not other people.
When I tell people that I’m a model, they are sometimes shocked that I am not a size 0 or 2. This industry has helped me grow a tough skin, but I’ve let that reaction get to me lately. Overworking at the gym when my body really needed rest was not smart on my part. It did not turn out well. I’ve managed to injure my back and hip and even caused some nerve damage along the way. It’ll be a long road to recovery, but now I know the value of rest days and staying within my body’s limits.
Lesson #4: Don’t get stuck in a victim mentality.
A close friend mentioned this in a recent conversation and it shifted my perspective on life (dramatic, I know). Yes, I’ve been dealt a bunch of shitty hands lately but I don’t need to keep blaming my lack of happiness on these circumstances or other people. I can either continue to whine about how my life sucks or I can take responsibility for where I went wrong and learn from it. I made some poor life decisions. Time to put my big girl pants on (more like just actual pants, for starters) and do my best to fix this hot mess I’ve created.
Lesson #5: Social media is an illusion.
I doubt anyone would’ve been able to guess how not Insta-worthy my life has been solely based on what I’ve been posting on Instagram. During what has been one of the worst times of my life, many people have told me how amazing my life seems on Instagram. All I did was get glam for some shoots and hid under a big faux fur coats and sunglasses when a camera was nearby . I wear makeup maybe once a week, sometimes not at all. It’s okay to not share every single thing about life on social media. As humans, we tend to put our best foot forward on social media and that’s something we need to remember. Please don’t idolize me as #goals, because I wouldn’t even consider my current situation something to aspire to.
Not all of it has been bad. I’m actually starting to enjoy this uncomfortable period of growth! It’s given me time to spend time with my bunnies, declutter my life, visit a friend I haven’t seen in a long time, and really check in with myself. I hope that by being brutally honest about being MIA, you learn a few things without having to learn it the hard way like I did.